Yes I made some changes....(some TMI here)

I am feeling a need for control and this seems to be the only way I can do it, at least when it comes to Mom.

Not a good day. Morgan and I stopped in there around 11 and Mom was moving slowly. She was in pain and was again very nauseated. We didn't stay long.

I called around 3 and Al answered. He had put a call in to the nurse and she had come to give Mom another anti-nausea med thru the needle. She was sleeping when I called (Mom, not the nurse).

The girls and I passed by (on our way for KFC for Morgan's birthday treat - they get to choose their birthday dinners - and she fell asleep. So Sleepy Baby, Brooke and I went for a tour...ended up down Centennial Road just in time to see a five car collision two houses down from Mom's. Nothing too serious...it's what the last four vehicles got for tail-gating the 1 ton truck!) and popped in. She was up...making herself a pork sandwich...first food all day, so I hope it went okay.

There are so many things I do not understand and am having a great deal of trouble getting my head wrapped around. Like, she has some diarrhea....yet the nurses are telling her to keep on the doubled up doses of laxatives and the stool softeners. She is on her max of morphine - 3 pills, 3 times daily - and has a refill, but the pharmacy won't fill it because she has 'maxed out' the dosage they can give her (according to the printed prescription from her dr) until 30 days pass. So....we need to call her dr. It's simple. He wants to put her on time-released morphine tablets but wanted her to track her usage for a couple of weeks so he could see where her pain level was controlled. She has been tracking....but hasn't called the dr. Now Al is saying he will....in a few days...because we need to 'see' (see? See, what??)...even though he also tells me that she is nearly out. (Sorry - but being without pains meds is one thing I don't think anyone should face!).

And something else - they gave her three ways to take the anti-nausea stuff - pill, suppository and injection - but only gave her pills for the morphine.

And when the hell is her nurse coming? Once a week? Only when called? Considering her blood pressure is up and she has been to the ER once again, does it not make sense to have a nurse in alternate days, at least for that first week?

Too many things my control-freak, OCD driven mind is not coping with.

*Sigh* I know....it isn't about me. But how are Al and I supposed to make good choices when everything seems to contradict the other?